I Wonder...

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord" (Isaiah 55:8).

I am completely and totally aware of God's Omnipotence, Omniscience, and Omnipresence.  Totally.  Completely.  My forthcoming question emanates from the deep wellspring of my faith, hope, and trust that hearkens back to childhood.  Simply, have Velma, my Mother, and Courtney, my daughter,  met in Heaven yet? (Granny and Cocoa-Puff). 

Two decades after Mother succumbed and a little over two years since Courtney departed earth's dimensions, I can no longer avoid wondering. While it may may be viewed as curious, even macabre by many, finally I can face it.  "When our work here is done and the life crown is won, And our troubles and trials are o'er, All our sorrow will end, and our voices will blend With the loved ones who've gone on before...In a land where we'll never grow old."  

Eternal life.  Streets of gold, " I'm gonna move on up a little higher, Gonna meet my friends and kindred.  Gonna meet my loving grandmother.  It will be always howdy, howdy, and never goodbye." Are my Mother and Daughter together?  

My journey to this point has been tangled and contorted as I danced the two-step-after-death of abject sorrow and unfiltered despair.  How dare I contemplate Heaven as a permanent residence? Even though, "In my Father's house are many rooms.  If it were not so, would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and will take you to myself, that where I am you may be also (John 14:2- 3).

Do I embrace Scripture, select among various cultural beliefs, or wallow in the morass of my grief? 

Yet, I still wondered.  What would a family reunion be like, including as it would, Grand Pop, who used to take Cocoa Puff to Baskin Robbins for ice cream cones during summer visits.  And Philip, her precious, first nephew, a Sudden Infant Death Syndrome(SIDS) victim? She'd  grieved him long and hard. His death, the first in her nuclear family, devastated her. What of relatives she'd never met?

"Some glad morning when this life is over, I"ll fly away, To a home on God's celestial shore, I'll fly away.  I'll fly away, O Glory, I'll fly away.  (In the morning) When I die, Hallelujah, bye and bye, I'll fly away."

Yes, I believe! In fact, I know Granny and Cocoa Puff continue to celebrate their  perpetual reunion, along with numerous loved one where there's never a goodbye!